i've been left with nothing but the knowledge to never do it again
there are no happy memories
i wish i'd never walked those streets
and that i could destroy that span
what have i done
it looked real it felt real it even sounded real
but revealed was such a sick little shpeel
not a moment was fun
maybe the only chance i ever need take
is one not of this world today
and no one here will suffice in any way
and that idea of a lady i need to shake
maybe now
i am finally awake 
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"What if?" You propose, but that's happened to me,
And don't think that I forget misery,
But I remember the tingles and glee,
And I remember my soul flying free,
For once, I didn't chain it to walls,
For once, I wasn't afraid of falls,
For a while, even on the grindstone things smelled fantastic,
And I could see the precious metal shimmering in plastic,
so i could deal with it when hurt became drastic,
if we do not open and take chances off our shelves
we will find that we will waste away all by ourselves. 

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From: Jeremy
Jan 5, 2005 5:32 AM                                  

 but what if all the joyous memories were fake
and that amazingishness took so long to bake
and in all ways that person did forsake
jumped on you armed with a rake
casting aside all unwanted
taking all of you just to flaunt it
like it was their own
and turning your heart and hopes to stone
and stabbing into your soul a jagged cone
and that's the best you've ever known
it rips into me,
this catastrophe
and i feel i don't wish to be
on this earth, i have nothing left to see
if i were to disgard all hope
nothing would remain and help me cope
but it is foolishness to think love will ever again be in scope
and i bellow out wretchedly
over mountain and sea
and then i need my mouth washed out with soap

 ----------------- Original Message -----------------
From: KRS-10
Date: Jan 5, 2005 12:17 AM

I think that broken hopes a-blazing
have been worth a search for something amazing
i believe that every time i try
and every time i say goodbye
to another idea, run over by tractors,
there have always been redeeming factors
the stories, the lessons, the fun, and the smiles,
have made any hardship all worth the while,
so i seem to have this achilles heel
always wanting to touch things that i can't feel,
always trying to fix things that i can't heal
but wanting the juice inside the peel,
so if there's rotten parts in what i ate,
at least some of the parts were great,
i'd just like to appreciate
the joyous memories that were made 


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 	 i couldn't think
this was us
did we pass the brink
of safety; and thrust
past to where we wish to be
lost in an unswimable sea
but if you bring just pain
remove yourself from my brain
for losing what this seems to be
would promptly drive me insane

----------------- Original Message -----------------
From: KRS-10
Date: Jan 4, 2005 10:43 PM

it's your fault
you placed it in my head
it wouldn't get out
and you failed to mention
the mom side of it all
whaaa
sink + lips
too hot too handle
err
yipe
runnnn

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i squeezed inside
your brain to hide
and there i layed
so when you stayed
under your sheets
and blankets sweet
i slipped through seams
of untouched dreams
and you were kissed
by kristen miss!!

mwahahah