From: KristRARRn
Date: Aug 31, 2005 1:39 PM      

Sort of wish i hadn't gotten these right before class
don't know how I'm going to maintain bricks on glass
Don't know if anyone in the lab i looking this way
and I hope the hair in face and rain will cover traces of today
and I hope the sentiments in here are not the mighty fist
of fate taking it's tole or even just the fingertips
and i dread that I'll be dead or your love will zombify
and I hope within the scope of future this will be alright

But if all these times alone and disappointed
you've found yourself to be
then you may imagine that statement jolted
giant pangs in me
and if all these times in my arms held
you've been unhappy
then perhaps there is much more to weld
than just the things I see.

In your lamest state you're my favourite person
in your whiniest voice, i want to be there to listen,
and for all i see in you I couldnt' understand
why you'd have no fourth opinions, and have so few friends,
and I wish i could give you a stronger foundation on which to stand...
But all I've done is taken your trust
and made the ground all shaky
and a friendly hand and a friendly hug
you need when things are quaky.

I'm so rarely disappointed
in the ways that we are jointed
and the only one who disappoints
is me, it's myself that haunts
and regrets
can't believe you wouldn't think i'd regret
i could understand in past
why mistakes were made to learn from,
but now i've known better and still i cast
out everything i care for
i can only apologize forever
and if forgiveness lives in another chapter
then perhaps we'll wait and find it after

i love you 


----------------- Original Message -----------------
From: Jeremy
Date: Aug 30, 2005 7:45 PM     

arg

i would have more power than that
i hope that in my lamest state
you'd still care for me, if you even do know
if there's something wrong with getting all or none
please tell me, and i'll decide if its me or us that's done

i think i have things pretty straight
i don't want any 4th opinions
although i probably do
but it would help if i knew the 2nd and 3rd
i feel like i never know the 2nd or 3rd
so how could i move onto the 4th
the fourth and fifth are friends of mine
friends that i'll never have
the fourth and fifth i'll never see
they don't live on my ave
or street or town or country
exist they don't, who knows why, not me
but i was content with the first three
but maybe i should;ve first become content with the first two
but that's hard to do
it's hard to do
explain to me, how to do that
i get the same answers every time
but i don't find them working for me
am i reaching enough
am i reaching at nothing
am i reaching enough
am i reaching at all


and every night, i'm dissapointed alone
and when i'm with you
i'm dissapointed alone
aren't you ever dissapointed in me?
i don't think it's wrong
i don't think it's hippocritical
i don't think i should say shit at all
but i do
but you do
but you do more
and i regret
and you don't
so why does forgiveness work sometimes only?