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| Here are my songs, straight from my notebook, unedited. My newest ones are at the top. |
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DOWN THE DRAIN drown the rain plug the drain giving away causes pain it's yours to give but there's a hole in your sive letting everyone in i hate to tell you it's a sin but i'm telling me too we're both wearing the same shoe but you've stepped in a little more poosh that stuff away posh, that stuff aint shway what do i have for you, i say it's only temporary eh it's only temporary what you're looking for is permanence found in omnipotence because if you're on the fence you're on the wrong side when times up, what is pride? you've won your life but are forever lost to live you let that hole attract you the one from the sive push that stuff away posh, that stuff aint shway what do i have for you, i say it's only temporary it's only temporary what you're looking for is your current fiend "it's all His fault" your only friend says "you are the salt" but you've lost your savor you've lost your saviour down the drain PIRATES AND DINOSAURS swim to shore your ship is sunk your crew is drunk dinos invade the sea at a quarter past three who's that riding a pteradactyl on it's back you'll look and see and you'll find me who's made you sore and you'll make it to the island still and let out a cry of hatred shrill out to location of treasure buried i won't bother to chase you scurried to find shelter, to hide now i'm on your side i always was, it's a fact i'll help you out however i can help you realise money's man the star of sunrise and gore you're a victim you're a threat, Jim chasing bills sporting bens HEARTS THAT BEAT ME TO DEATH As the sun set in my heart the scene was of masterly evil would it ever rise again would you help me rise again or is it even possible I sense it coming, peeling up from the ground but then a whisper, a sound murmuring all around not a ray could escape nothing took form, or took shape rough voices said "what from their black hearts bled has concealed your sun, so give up, you're finished, you're done!" (you're done) (you're done) I'm done. ((rise again)) I'm done. ((rise again)) I'm done. ((rise again)) I'm done. TOP DAMNED CURSE I need your arms around me it's a dream that keeps me alive damned hope damned dream leave me to die do not mock me knowing that my dream it will always be a dream, a curse. DEPRIVED something for me in this world will I ever find? a friend? a love? why is the answer always no? day after day week after week year after year but no one ever near so much time alone. alone. my life, deprived of life. TOP EVERYONE(but me) I need your support please give me comfort why can't I feel you here? why do I feel rejected? please send help from above I need to feel your love. It's free, your friendship's a gift to everyone but me Please, I pray for a moment that You can show that Your there and I will know forever that You care A CLOSER LOOK something so beautiful but also so ugly everything, so beautiful drawing me in from a distance so harmless but up close it's just sin TOP CLOSER TO YOU...or not They say everyday brings me closer and closer to you but will that day even come? are you there waiting for me too? how could there be someone else like me? I have no friends no one remotely close who thinks the way I do? so here I am on my search for someone writing each and every word so that by you they may be heard please don't hide all that's inside be sure not to be shy be exactly who you are be exactly who you want to be so that if you happen to walk by I will know, and together we will cry. (added later) beauty of the heart it's the only part that matters to me so free your heart let it out to the world show it in every way it must be on display MY SEARCH FOR SOMEONE here I am just waiting, thinking you'll just walk right in here and all my troubles will disappear here I lie my door wide open my arms ready to receive my heart overflowing ready to pour into yours our hearts will become one are you lying there too? thinking of me thinking of you if we met now would we turn away? is it better this moment happen another day? my search, simplified glad to be different but then I have no one no one forever I've turned to You You've turned away, away. TOP INSIDE It used to mean something All decked out in his punk rock clothes listening to the words, enjoying the shows. he goes to school sees kids trying to be cool they look the same as him but there's nothing the same inside of them. Image destroyed, he tosses out those clothes finds something new to show what's within no one would try to pose but now that's what's in. Image destroyed, he tosses out those clothes now this quiet boy has no way to show and no one will ever know. WAITING this pain is fine I understand why it must be and I thank-you the more pain I feel the more I can appreciate happiness but when? when will this happiness come? I'm waiting I have been waiting but when will it come? am I the only one? who else has been waiting so long? when will this happiness come? thank-you but when? TOP PLEASE Please be careful with that smile a shame not to use but a dangerous weapon somehow such a beautiful person should not have such a beautiful smile every time I look at you what am I to do? for I am defenseless against that smile wandering through the forest with the rain softly pounding the leaves your steps making the same sound it is a blur of grey and green I look to my feet should have kept my gaze there lifting my head to your eyes I didn't make it Stopped by that smile, wish you could be mine forever for that smile could not hold its own beauty everything around is made perfect by your smile and the grey and green return again, it's all a blur ... as of yet, untitled the fall of me thought I was better I wasn't how could it happen? was it my fault? was it yours? I hate me I hate you forgive me erase this from my mind you we're the solution but you became the problem TOP DECLINATION OF INDENTATION cheap conversation meaningless dialogue back and forth hours and hours again and again hey, how are you? but I don't really care you say 'what's up?' and you walk away shut up nothing to say just shut up it's time to start (caring) time to part with meaningless dialogue ... ... I will tell you what's going on but you don't want to know why ask? what am I to say? nothing. a lie. as of yet, untitled naming everything that's wrong I can't help but name what's right there's not much left that can go wrong when will it go wrong I'm waiting for it to go wrong TOP DISGUISED disguised you're filled with lies should I ever trust again will I ever trust again I hate myself because I'll trust again and again I was so slowly sliding downhill I did not notice the movement till I hit the end or maybe I was always there with my eyes closed had I imagined myself better than that and opening them for the first time, is this who I am it cannot be I hate me TAKE CONTROL, SAVE ME I've been flying this my whole life yet I don't know a thing about it. I've got no map, no direction to head, yet I keep on thinking I can do it myself. The autopilot's off 'cause I can't trust anyone but me. I should've let you take control, please come aboard. You can see ahead, you know the direction I should go. It's a long way to fall and I've done it before. I've dipped in the flame, trying to get out of the storm. Thought the sun would be nice, but all I found was fire. I was doomed, but you were there all along. paying attention to the clouds and lightning, but it was distracting me this whole time from you. Thank-you for creating this terrain, taking control, for you know it best. Why wouldn't I let you take control. my life, is now in your hands. steer me guide me I am now your passenger. no need for parachutes. no longer afraid of the storm. my hands may be on the wheel but your hands are cupped over mine steer me guide me TOP as of yet, untitled something's wrong I see it, I feel it I know you can too but the difference is you turn away shrug your shoulder, turn your back we know it's wrong but the difference is I put a plan to action so many in the future will have satisfaction how can you just shrug your shoulder, and then turn your back so many things wrong you just go along so much change needed would it help if I pleaded? here I am please take a stand NEED A RELEASE I do not want to react that way but what else is there to do or say this sponge is full stretched beyond its limits I try to go to you but I find no one there to help me, I'm trapped and there's seemingly no way out. why do others find an escape should I be looking or am I just a coward everyone's life seems so happy mine just brings me tears there's something wrong with everything I even see it in myself TOP A PEACEFUL HEART, NOT A FULL STOMACHE I live in a 3rd World country this place is worse. I feel dead. HATE PAIN LIES IMPURITY JUDGEMENT Why do you think this place is better? I could live without FOOD SHELTER MONEY I wish I was not here I wish I was there You've got it wrong... This is the 3rd World. I LOVE YOU Why am I drowning? Why won't you help me? Why won't anyone help me? I try not to lie, steal, hate. Why are you doing this to me? I'm trying to understand what makes you do these things to me. Maybe you're feeling worse than I am. Maybe your problems are worse than mine. Can I help you? You say I act, think, and dress wrong. Why? Do you wish you were like me? Are you scared? I'm willing to help you. Why don't you appreciate the respect I have for everyone? I won't try to be who you think I should be. Do your clothes make you feel better? Do you like your thoughts? Do you like how you act? Does my pain comfort you? Why? TOP |